EmoSTAR

Dairy

Today when to see vanessa wif my mother!!

But the sad thing is tat maybe i forever cant see vanessa anymore le ... we go her childcare see her but she was not there !! We ask the person there de then the person say vanessa not in this childcare le !! How ?? I cant see her le ... i can give up any thing to see her ... i really miss her alot !! WHY THEY HAVE TO DO THIS !!Vanessa when then i can see euu ?? going to 3 mth nv see euu le ... will euu forget miie ?? pls dun !!my mum tell miie tat she give up hope on seeing her again !! tat time my heart really veri pain !!WHY GOD HAVE TO DO THIS TO MIIE !!! I HATE EUU !!! Can anyone give miie $500 !! why ?? I HATE EVERYTHING!! I REALLY HATE ... WHY GOD HAF TO LET MIIE CRY EVERYDAY FOR MISSING HER !! i HAF ALOT OF THING TO SAY TO HER ... I WANT TO PLAY WIF HER I WAN TO SEE HER EVERYDAY !! BUT WHY?? TELL MIIE WHY???? NOBODY CAN EVER REPLACE HER IN MY HEART SHE WILL ALWAYS BE THE 1ST !! DUN ASK MIIE STUPID THINGS ABT WHO DO I LOVE .... I ONLI LOVE HER !!

# posted by EmoStar at 11:54 PM

I lost in a small battle !!

Few days ago i got a class test on Retail operation !! Then i study kinda hard but abit of playing to relax myself !! But i didn't expect tat i will fail my test !! Not say fail badly but by 17 n the half by right haf to get 20 to pass de !! Haish !! My heart drop to the bottom of the deep ocean!! But i veri fast find it back !! I WILL STUDY FKING HARD THIS TIME !!!!!! ARGH !!! NO FAIL IS THIS WORD IN MY DICTIONARY !!! All is pass onli !!! I MUST JIA YOU FOR MY FUTURE !!!! STRIVE FOR THE BEST !!! Ok its time for miie to be pig !! by3

# posted by EmoStar at 10:39 PM

Yesterday meet wif Robin!!

Hmm... meet wif him as a frenz but turn out to become not i m thinking !! Kinda stress abit !! But everything seem to be ok !! But he bought miie a chocolate veri nice de wor !! Ps the pic got error !! cant upload so too bad cant upload to let euu see!! But still wan to say Thank you B !! euu say dun cal euu robin so cal euu B... hah ... but most boring part was here !! He met my father n we tgt eat dinner ... omg !! There talk alot of things !! But dun really can say out at here, so jus dun ask !! I cal my father at 7pm to fetch miie home then he come abt 7.30 pm then eat dinner then they talk till 9 pm !! After go hm bath then slp !! Tats all !! BUT B I WAN TO SAY TAT EUU R THE FIRST SO CAL BF I BRING TO LET MY FAMILY SEE DE !! Happy ... haha !!

# posted by EmoStar at 8:37 PM

He start to think!! =)

Ok tat was quite gd euu know !! He start to think tat future is much more important then r/s... Quite for miie i guess !! Now hoping tat he could get a gd result in N lvl bah !! Jia you ah robin!! Got to be more hard work now !! No joke ! Life is a 1 way things no turn bck. cant rewind so i haf to make use of my life !! I wan to strive my goal !! I wan to be a CEO of a big company!! MY GOAL !! WATS ur goal?? tell miie !! maybe euu think i m crazy abt being CEO of a big company but i will say to euu so wat !! euu ler NO GOAL ah !! haha !! i hope my goal will come true ... not hope is MUST !! haha !! so good luck to everyone bah !! =)

# posted by EmoStar at 10:13 PM

I told him !! HE was HURT !!

I did not mend to hurt him really !! I know i m a fker !! If he really wan to hate miie or ignore miie i m alright but i jus wan to let him know tat, I STILL LIKE YOU!! Yesterday i sms him to cheer him up but he give miie a cold reply !! Haish !! I m a damn fking bad person !! But i haf no choice !! if i dun say it earlier then he will get more hurt !! Its all my fking heart fault !! Maybe nw i m the wan who being a joke to him !! I dun noe wat his frenz how they think of miie?? They will say aiya this type of gal onli play play onli lar dun care her lar !! Call her go die lar !! Maybe they will say this way !! I m really really really SORRY !! I dun noe he will see my blog anot but i m really SORRY!! =( ... If euu wan to ignore miie its ok !! I jus wan euu to know tat future is much more important tat gf/bf... If no gd future how to support ur loves ones in the future?? I will always be the STAR beside euu !! If euu nid any help i will give my help to euu!! If euu dun wan euu can throw it to the shark n let them eat !!

Here's for everybody who see this ... DUN BE A FKER LYK MIIE !! THINK BEFORE ACCEPTING OTHER PPL LOVE!! DUN WAIT TILL EUU REGRET THEN EUU BREAK!! I WILL HAVE BAD THINGS HAPPENING TO MIIE I SWEAR !! GOOD LUCK TO ALL IN UR STUDY !! THINK TWICES OK!!

# posted by EmoStar at 6:32 AM

The feeling was weird to know !!

Knowing tat i had decided to start a new relationship!! At first i was kinda happy until nw tat i feel tat i had forgot how to love!! I rmb i use to be alone !! Suddenly i haf a bf around telling miie he love miie every single day !! I take tat as irritating ... I am SORRY !! Really Sorry robin !! I really dun noe wat i m thinking nw !! I lose my temper jus nw to robin !! I really dun mean it !! I really dun mean to hurt anyone !! But in last 2 yr i hate use to be alone n i like alone Nw i accept him n i nw regret?? I really dun noe !! I dun noe how to say to robin !! Say le wat he will do ?? hate miie ?? I FKING HATE MYSELF FOR DOING SUCH A STUPID THINGS!! I dun wish to see euu sad !! I really Dun wan to but i really onli can go to the extend of LIKE onli !! Baby Sorry !! Maybe my mum told miie something tat remind miie tat wat my ex da sao do !! she look down on my brother !! I dun wan to look down on euu .... maybe i m not a good person euu can love !! BABY SORRY !! Nw to my extend i m forcing myself to lyk/love !! I dun WAN euu to think tat i m a gal tat anyhow accept ppl love ... I know euu do alot of things on miie lyk folding hearts of thought .... I M SORRY !! Euu can hate miie or do wateva things euu wan ... I oso FKING HATE MYSELF TAT I NV THINK PROPERLY BEFORE ACCEPTING EUU !! ITS MY FAULT !! SORRY !! I HOPE EVERYTHING IS JUS A DREAM !! WAKE MIIE UP !! HELP MIIE !! I M STUCK !! MY MIND WAS GONE !! Can i haf sometime to think abt it ?? ROBIN VERI SORRY OK !!

# posted by EmoStar at 7:48 PM

Meeting with baby Robin !!

Today after sch meet dear dear robin !! This meeting is study lar but end up playing n see pic !! But he Fool miie lor !! dun noe make the hand then suddenly lol !! I lyk o.o !! Shock lar !! then yesterday the whole nite he fold the heart give miie !! not 1 wor alot !! then he whole nite nv slp !! OMG SO SWEET~ Love euu baby !! Baby euu r the best !! MUACKZ !!

The pic tat i take !!

# posted by EmoStar at 11:12 PM

Start a new yr in ITE & relationship !!

Today first day of ITE !! Hmm nice baH !! Make 3 new frenz !! haha !! wa got alot of shuai ge sia !! baby dun jealous ah !! Euu more shuai ok !! haha !!
Then everything when will in ITE !! Whole day play game lor ...
But play game tat time still sms baby !! =) Baby 48% le wor !! jia you ah !!
Let miie intro euu my baby !! he is Robin hood !! JKJK !! Robin ... age 17 !!
Love to play basketball n Fishing ... He is my dear dear !! Cute dear !! Lyk to sat vulgarity !! ROBIN IS A PAI KIA !!=P !!
haha not really totally is pai kia i think !! haha !! 03-01-10 we start of story !! I know its onli 1 day plus i noe him but i still Lyk him !!
baby sry to not saying I love you n Muackz to euu !! Euu oso noe the reason
so sry =( !! i try my best ok !! ILY!!

# posted by EmoStar at 5:17 PM

Start a new r/s ?

Hmm ... whr to start !! Thinking so hard tat should i accept him !! scare to be hurt again !! Haish !! he is in sec 4 coz he repeat pri 6 !! But he is a good person i guess !! But he is a PIA KIA !! True !! I dun noe when he lyk miie but he say tat he more n more lyk miie !! make miie more scare!! '~' !! How !! starting to lyk him le !! Gosh ~ m i dead !! haish !! Everything seems to be complicated !! Dun wish to think so much !! Jus missing Vanessa !! every single day missing her !! wish tat 1 day i will see her !! Why my wish cant come true ler ?? life sux !!

# posted by EmoStar at 9:56 PM